Sunday, January 11, 2009
On a side note, I have decided that I have been a very horrible Christian(in fact human being) to a few of my friends. I mean, honestly screaming at one half the time (and forcing him into an arguement) isn't a very nice thing. And then there is mum. Well God knows how many times I had those irriating thoughts about her and the number of vulgarity that I threw at her mentally. And then there was dad. There are days I feel like I am simply using him as a money machine. As in there have been times where I am like, I should do some nice things to dad and then it gets shuffed away (like yay). I don't know, perhaps it's a matter of prioities in my life? Is like, perhaps what my mum said is true. My friends are relatively more important than my parents which is kind of, not very right.
And then there is me and the execptionally high amount of cursing and complaining,like a lot of bulid up angst which is also like not to be. I mean I shouldn't even be complaining so much about other people. Like hello, what right do I have man? I am attributing that to the displacing of God. Like, I guess I really a prioties overhaul. And motivation to continue it.
Oh and I decided to add a thanksgiving section to my journalling everyday. Makes me more aware of God. I guess I was praying (more like talking to God but anyhows) that I would be very lonely at service today. And God gave me Joanna, Ryan and more. Whee. And there was this whole time at IDT meeting where we met frens ( I hope they don't find me too noisy xD). And I think I am going out with Sarah from the States for dinner later. YAY.
I am thinking of honouring the Sabbath actually. Like really try although I don't know how this will work out.
Innocence
5:56 PM
