Monday, June 30, 2008
Sin, in short, is the displacement of God in your life. I am quite sure you won't want God around when you are cheating in a test, making false transcations, visiting pornographic sites etc. So therefore,when you sin you are saying "I don't want God" - Adapted from Matthew Lo (Ministry Staff of CEFC)
Innocence
1:56 AM
Friday, June 27, 2008
Okay. Do you guys miss my song updates? Haha, it will come soon. I am officially obessed with the wrong things. First. KURAN Kaname and KURAN Yuuki. Get the point? And Kaname is a VAMPIRE that is really DARK. Second. Kuchiki Byakuya AND Abarai Renji (it's the AND that makes all the difference)
Boo.
Anyway, song lyrics snippets again.
Vampire Knight Theme Song (Translation of course) Shaking in red, in red, in red
To the edge of the dream’s dream
Already, every time when I’m stifled to death after I give up again and again
My emotions that have no place to go wake me up
Your unblemished smile knows it’s an existence
So distant that it’s cruel
Even though the unhealable wound only eats away at my heart
Even now I can’t completely hold back my thoughts (that dwell) (within) the darkness
Shaking in red, in red, in red
To the edge of the dream’s dream
We met; destiny begins to turn
A secret that no one, no one knows about
I fall, I fall, I fall
I certainly can’t return anymore, even if I let my sins pass
--
神秘嘉宾
This one is really deep
我踩著夢的階梯
走進了 一座迷霧森林
誰的心事 被天使竊聽 泛起漣漪
時間它幫我設計
下一秒 誰是神秘嘉賓
小心翼翼 揭開了面具 掌聲鼓勵
誰闖進我的場地
誰讓我措手不及
我早就預備的劇情 妳卻給我一筆
狡猾地 致命地 正中我紅心
我跟誰變得親密
誰逐漸離我遠去
華麗演出共襄盛舉 唯有妳的背影
友情客串卻留下刻骨銘心 的回憶
妳按了我的門鈴
我終於 從呵欠中甦醒
緊張兮兮 對妳說一句 歡迎光臨
全場觀眾都離席
剩下我 還在原地尋覓
耳邊聽著 謝幕的歌曲 走不出去
誰闖進我的場地
誰讓我措手不及
我早就預備的劇情 妳卻給我一筆
狡猾地 致命地 正中我紅心
我跟誰變得親密
誰逐漸離我遠去
華麗演出共襄盛舉 唯有妳的背影
友情客串卻留下刻骨銘心 的回憶
我搬到誰的隔壁
誰成了我的鄰居
鳴謝生命有妳參與 笑納我的邀請
曲終人散卻寫下不會結束 的結局
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I don't know whether I have posted this posted. But I heard it over radio last night and well the lyrics start speaking all over again. I will just post the chorus for this one.
像孩子依赖著肩膀
像眼泪依赖著脸庞
你就像天使一样
给我依赖 给我力量
像诗人依赖著月亮
像海豚依赖海洋
你是天使 你是天使
你是我最初和最後的天堂
-天使-五月天
Innocence
6:05 PM
Monday, June 23, 2008
Packing still continues.
But anyway. I just feel like typing some other things. Em. About life? Packing stuff can be rather nostagic indeed. I found things like my old primary school notes (which i have already disposed of) and my primary school certs (which I kept). I also found letters from my angels, gifts. Sorted out some receipts and got reminded of my shopping sprees of lunches I had with my friends. It was sweet.
I have thrown out an amazing amount of stuff as well. Recalling when I was younger, I used to keep everything for the sake of keeping. Now that I think of it. keeping stuff like that is just a reflection of the state of mind I was. A state of mind that refused to move, that held on rubbish and refuse to dump them. It's like life ain't it? Sometimes we just can't move on. We keep those trashy memories of how others treated us, of our failures and when new things come, there ain't enough space for new things to come in. Now that you think of it from a third person perspective, it's dumb! Obviously you throw out the old and bad and put the new right? But why don't people do it?
I don't know whether my conjecture is right this time, but perhaps it's got to do with forgetting it. You got something, you finally thrashed it to one of ur drawers of memories and you never look at it again. Sooner or later you will forget and you move on with life. But the problem is, you can keep it in the drawers, it might not do you harm, but you realized there is no space for the new ones to come in either. So everything gets out. Either that, or if you like me, a rather compartmentalised person, some sections would be overflowing with things while others, filled with stuff that ought to be all thrown.
I feel so much better now. With all the space I have already cleared. For example, my stationery drawer has 2 drawers now, so my stationery wouldn't be squashed. Important bills (eg Bank Bills) have a file now instead of being thrashed everywhere. My cosmetics and all have a new section to expand into. I threw out all the uni apps stuff, all the JC stuff and all the books I never would need again. Space made, person relaxed, processof getting ready for a new life.
I have never been this ruthless in throwing things out. But I know I have to, be thorough with the packing, be ruthless with the throwing because life moves on. And I have to. I keep certain stuff that are important and that is all. I keep happy things and not sad ones.
And I realized what the amount of space can do to me. It feels so refreshing. It's like I can rest properly now. But of course there is stillwork to do. Let me do a check now:
1. I need to sort out that cabinet in the living room. I think I have tons of wires to throw out. Hopefully I can clear more drawers again. Space!
2. I need to repack my stationery drawers as since I have TWO now, that means I get to space out things
3. I need to move all my gulity pleasures into my gulity pleasures drawer. On a side note, it's so me. I have my anime fanning times, but they remain in that one drawer, not spatter everywhere. So whenever I need relief, I will open the drawer and find everything inside. =) I should lock that drawer when I go out, so that people will not know my secret pleasures (em, jessie, half the world ALREADY knows. Please look at your own blog layout)
4. I need to pack my bookshelf. Although the books are all there, but bleahs, they are in all weird order. Fiction and non fiction mixed, comic as well. Then notebooks mixed with story books. -_- That spreads to the last shelf with the files. Filled files and non filled files mixed -__- How am I supposed to find stuff man!
5. I need to sort out my pens drawers. They are overflowing. See whether I can throw things out and I would need to do a bit of stock taking before uni starts and I got a feeling I got pens/refills to buy. Hopefully I get it done before June ends, then I can just use the 20% Popular Voucher.
6. I need to sort out my assocries drawer as well. Em, I have 4 minis for tha BUT 3 are taken by hair ass and my last drawer is like over packed with earings, braclets, etc. I need to find a way to fix that or move those stuff to another drawer. That would need a bit of trial and error. I might be able to free up my last desk drawer to put all this. *ponders*
7. I will need to pack those seemingly neat boxes in the cabinet beside my bed. Inside the boxes are just MESS. I will need throwout things I don't want, and again hopefully free up spaces for more stuff to enter.
8. I need to sort that last bit of Christian box stuff. I will probably need to get a cabinet/drawers to properly segegrate the stuff. Seriously, besides the Christian books that are on my shelf, every other thing is in the BOX. Can you imagine how messy it is -_- And I will need read some of the stuff so that one shd take like a SUPER long time.
9. Clear up so that everything is in perfect order.
10. I nearly forgot abt this. Throw (Recycle) my old mags. A whole box is just a waste. Throw away the old computer table. I am this close to throwing my old jigsaws and board games away. But I will not.
11. I can't believe I forgot this. I need to pack my "memory box" and all the letters. I was thinking of putting them up in a photo book sort of thing. My corresponds with my cousin have to go to a nice clear folder for now coz it's on going and thus not gonna move up to the boxes yet.
SEE! It's a lot of work you know. Never mind, I have the whole of July to do it, so it wouldn't matter. And OH OH. I need to buy stuff, here's my shopping list (even before money comes. Someone shd shoot me)
a. I need a cd cabinet.
b. I need a new cabinet for my room (I fred up space for it) and possibly the Christian stuff can move in and if I have more space, some of the stuff from the outside cabinets can move in. Otherwise, leave the space for future notes and books.
c. I need new stationery (list to be generated after stock taking)
d. My monthly supply of novels! Just a book or two will do la. And I need to read my non fiction as well.
e. Comics - Honey and Clover (But honestly, this can wait)
f. Anything my cousin demands to be mailed to her in NZ. (I will generate the list SOON.)
g. Photoframe
h. A new notice board. (Then I can print this and pin it up. HEH.) I am thinking of something simple and possibly the wood one since my room is so woody already. Honestly, I would prefer something more urban for my room than wood. But it will suffice la (Minus a irriating lack of a full length mirror)
Okay I am yawning. I think I am tired already that's why. Which is good, I do believe that Kel wants to meet me tomorrow morning or sth. Lack of sleep makes me a disagreeable and grumpy girl.
So till then, ciao!
Innocence
3:27 AM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Packing strategy.
I aim to finish a little by little and that by the start of uni, I would be able to have a puurrr fect room (welll plus all the other cabinets that I invaded). Then I will have a perfectly neat room for years to come (or so I hope).
Anyway, let's see what have I done.
I have cleared the desk beside the Tvs in the living such that only the box of Christian stuff plus a keyboard is left.
I have cleared em, the memory box and it's now on top of the book shelf on my bed.
I cleared my pooh make shift drawer and placed everything in wherever it shd be.
Things that I need to do (quite a list):
Pack the loose paperworks and file them accordingly.
Collate the leftover memory stuff and put them into memory box
Collate all pictures/letters to my photobook
Pack every single cabinet slot and every single drawer (which is a lot)
Poof.
REVAMP HERE I COME!
Innocence
3:59 PM
Friday, June 13, 2008
YAY I got a new laptop. More accurately, I got MY laptop finally. Well, everything was going pretty well (minus a slight hiccup due to my refusal to follow instructions with regards to the router) UNTIL..
MSN.
Darned MSN.
It refused to sign in although the internet connection is all in and everything's working PURRfectly fine. When I went to settings, it still dared to tell me that NET MESSENGER is connected. Gosh! Faints.
So I am here blogging simply due to the annoyance caused by my darling new lappie.
It's a Fujitsu btw, with a Inter Duo 2 2.5 processor and a supposed 4 gig RAM. For some strange reason or another, the RAM config according to the com is 3.25 gig. Am I being cheated? *wonders*
Anyways, MSN IS STILL NOT SIGNED IN!
Innocence
11:21 PM
Thursday, June 12, 2008
LALA.
I am a newly converted Kaname lover. *dies* Anyway, just one last one to top off tonight's spree. My fave is still the last bit when Yuuki got her memory back. That was just sticks in my head all say long. I think I will post that ONE pic plus one bonus one before I don't know, read a bit then sleep.
Anyway, yes the new layout's Kaname & yuki as well. Someone please murder me. I am turning into a teeny booper.
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Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Quotes from The Age of Innocence "Fashionable! Do you all think so much of that? Why not make one's own fashions?" - Countess Olenska
"Everything may be labelled - but everybody is not" - Newland Archer
Innocence
1:01 PM
