Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Perfection is a state of mind.
Somehow this line just popped into my brain for no reason and yes this deserved to be thought about. I think about times when we are done with a project (especially to do with art), and we exhale, it’s perfect.
So what do we really mean when we say so?
It simply just means satisfaction. In our hearts there is always a standard to a lot of things and when these unseen standards are met, we find the thing perfect. But frankly speaking, it’s subjective. For a person who knows more then others, who holds higher standards than others, it’s harder for them to reach that perfection. So why don’t we just lower down our expectations and we will be happier?
Well that’s the simple version of things. Upon further pondering and stepping out to look at the whole picture, it is evident that perfection in itself is an emotion contrary to popular beliefs of it as being something that one can chase after, something to be attained. Judging by this definition, there is no perfection in this world, then why is there even this word that exists? Why do we stress on being perfect? So is eternity. No one lives to see eternity, so why do we bother to think about eternity> (Alright, for Christians we know we have eternity in God and we have perfection in Him too, but stop and think about what these two words mean).
Now may I offer you a new version of perfection. Make perfect a word that means the best that can happen for this time, right now. Look around yourself, my room is messy and it is definitely not perfect if judging by your definiation, but with mine, I would say it is, for because, for now, it’s the best I can do. So it’s perfect for now.
Perfection is a choice, like joy. You can choose to see things around you and call them perfect or be upset over them because they are still so much to be done. Face it. There is always more to be done. Either you make do with it or say bye to perfection (remove that word from your dictionary). And yes, this is also one of the roots of joy. Perfection allows people to be happy, and since that is so, why don’t we allow ourselves feel perfect more often (that doesn’t mean brag) instead of pondering of ways we can make it attain some form of unattainable standards?
Okay. I don’t know what I am typing about.
So make sense from my confusion then.
Innocence
12:34 AM
Monday, June 19, 2006
Okay I was plain bored. And I was reading hui's blog.. And being bored as I am, I decided to do all the quizzes she did. LOLZ :) Hey, nobody said I couldn't be spamming this blog.. ;) So have fun.. Btw, in case you wondering.. I don't have a special somemore.. Just that Hui's quizzes are all -_-.. Oh well just take it at face value :P
| Your Relationship Will Last... A Long Time! |
 This may be hard for you to swallow, but you and your guy might not lastAt least not forever. He's somewhere between Mr. Right... and Mr. Right NowNo doubt your guy is a great catch - and generally good to youThe odds are, however, that someone better is out there! |
| Men See You As: An Attainable Challenge |
 You know how to make your man crave more of youBut you also know when to show some interest backYou're good at keeping your guy guessingAnd over time, you'll let him know how you really feel |
Are You a Challenge?
| He's a Keeper! |
 Your guy is a rare find: sweet, kind, and loyal.And as long as he doesn't have three nippples,You should seriously consider keeping him a long time
Sometimes a girl can't see a good thing when she's got oneSo let me tell you: your guy is a gold medal boyfriendJust make sure you treat him right in return! |
| Your Toes Should Be Black |
 A total rulebreaker (and heartbreaker), you're always a little punk rock.
Your flirting style: Wacky and a bit shocking
Your ideal guy: An accomplished artist, musician, or writer
Stay away from: Preppy guys looking for a quick bad girl fling |
| You Have Him Totally Hooked |
 Your guy is all yours - and happily so.He loves being around you, and he totally sees you as a couple.It looks like you two have a great future together - if you want it! |
Do You Have Him Hooked?
| You are a Great Girlfriend |
 When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtfulBut you also haven't stopped thinking of yourselfYou're the perfect blend of independent and caringYou're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too! |
Most of my answers are like the same as hui's..e xcept the err color of nails one.. I think sth is wrong with the quizzes.. She says it's becoz of some other reason... --_-- But well.. I had fun :D:D
Innocence
11:22 PM
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Who are you in God's eyes?
Innocence
7:21 PM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
On Verses that guard my life“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart, I appointed you as a prophet to the nations” – Jeremiah 1:5 (NIV)
“For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm, plans to give you a hope and a future” – Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
“
Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs in the kingdom in heaven
Blessed are those who mourned,
for they will be comforted
Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth
Blessed are those who hunger for righteousness,
for they will be filled
Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy
Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called the sons of God
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteous,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven “ – Matthew 5:3-10 (NIV)
“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again. Rejoice!” Philippians 4: 4 (NIV)
On personal beliefs
1. God created voids in our hearts. To the cynical people, it’s because man are born selfish. But to me, it’s because, God created this voids so that he can fill. It’s like God’s home. In facts it is in this voids that He resides. And in fact when I write, I expose these voids. We cannot change them. But rather when we let God in and fill these voids, that’s when we are complete.
2. We are imperfect people, so we should stop trying to be perfect (ie get everything done right), but instead be glad and look back at what we have and rejoice in it.
3. Joy is a choice.
4. The best way to learn is to experience it. The best way to grow is through pain. à No pain no gain.
5. Simplicity is the best policy. I can think and think and think but in the end, the answers are usually the simplest ones.
6. It’s okay to be a child. Just do it to the right person à God. Whine at God, complain to God, scream at God. Not at human beings.
7.The deepest people are the simplest ones. They go through the whole cycle only to know that the simple life is what that is required and it is what God has provided. But if you don’t go through this cycle of seeking, searching, desiring, your simplicity is either a) foolishness or b) Gift from God.
On relationships
It’s not about taking. It’s about giving. It’s about communication. It’s about putting your heart to one person. It’s about giving praises and compliments. It’s about being there when they need you. It’s about giving a listening ear when they need it.
In short,
Love.
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. “ - 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8
On familyIt’s about coming back to a place and resting. There is no need to put up fronts in family. Like it say it, hate it say it. There is no hatred of any sort. There is no need to face up to anyone’s expectations. It’s a place that you get comfort and shelter and it’s the place that your best comes out naturally. There will be no tiredness in serving or speaking to your family. You don’t need to act nice. The niceness just flows out of you.
It’s a place of absolute trust.
And I know why my family fails.
Innocence
11:28 AM
My mum has decided that I am not like her (contrary to many popular beliefs of my dearest relatives) and she listed the reasons as 1, I do not treasure family life as much as her and 2.I value money more than relationships. And yes, I hear you my friends, laughing. Well, her accusations are not entirely false but I find this little mind of mine wandering.
Why must I be like my mum in the first place? I am not saying that my mum is bad or whatever, even if my mum was the President of the United States, why must I be like her? And it just shows a inner inaquecy in her AND many of us. In this conservative society we live in, somehow or another, giving yourself high praises seem to end yourself in waves of gossips and negative feelings. Take for example, I think I am good at maths. I go around teaching people. I get ousted by my friends who say I am proud. Frankly, I predict two types of reactions, a) YES! That happened to me OR YA! My friend is like that or b) Are you sure? I don’t think that happens. If you have a C reaction, do tell me, I want to know J And if you are B, lucky you.
Anyhows, we can’t seem to boost of things we are good about (at least not to normal acquaintances) and because something in our hearts deals with it (something I call adaptation the surroundings) , we mellow down to a state where, we FORCE ourselves to see ourselves in a bad light (at least superficially) ie. We know we are good at Maths, but we keep quiet unless people asks us for help. When people praise us, we say “No la, I am not good”. And in your heart a little voice goes: I am good, but I can’ say, if I say it, I am a proud person” Stupid theory right? But it happens every single day and I myself do it too.
But back to the inadequacy bit, you see, because of the adaptation-to-prevent-others-to-say-we-are-proud, we have to force ourselves to NOT feel good about ourselves. And that’s when the inadequacy come it. We are created to feel good about ourselves. No, I do no mean we must boost of everything, there are things around the world that we do not know, and our good doesn’t mean the best. Rather, I mean, we are created such that we like the feeling of being a level higher than people around us. And thus parents want us to be like them. They know they are “better” than us (because they are older and blah blah) so they want us follow them, well, I am saying they are hypocrites or something, but it’s true that they have been through more than us and what they are doing now are a collection of many experiences and trials and errors but again, it’s not the best as many of them claim, but rather, it springs from the fact that they have been forcing themselves down for so long (pretending they are not good) but still knowing that they are good at things and by the time they hit their 40s and 50s, it has reached the peak. They WANT to feel good so badly, but they STILL can’t do it outside and who they divert it to? The kids. The feeling that the kids are following them makes them feel good, every one likes to be a notch higher up.
I swear this is a messy piece of exposition, but I hope you all are following my argument. So, in short, our dear parents are being oppressed too long, they can’t tell others how good they are (because they will be critised) and by the time they hit their 50s, it’s like at the bottleneck, so what they do? They try to make their children follow them, I mean when someone follows you, it means you are good right? And some people, like my mum (for various reasons) take it to the extreme, she somehow feels that her model of living and thinking is the best (err.. As much I don’t really like my mum a lot, this isn’t meant to be a personal attack) and if I don’t follow her model, I am bound to die. I am bound to get into trouble.
Oh well, I don’t really buy that. And that is one reason my mum and I don’t see eye to eye.
So back to the question, why must I be like my mum?
Innocence
10:05 AM
Have you ever wanted why you made a particular decision?
You know something, my friends, 'cause the particular decision was made by God.
Innocence
9:24 AM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
How can a girl who puts facts above feelings, a girl who chooses to analyse emotions than to feel them and the same girl who chooses to provide an explanation of everything find solace in art and music, in the rattling of the leaves, in the touch of the breeze?
I don’t know how.
But I know I am the girl.
Innocence
7:21 PM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
"You know, life is like a wrestling match, you sway from one side to another" "So who wins in the end then?""Love wins. Love always wins."
Innocence
1:42 AM
Monday, June 05, 2006
He came.
He gave.
He took away.
He raised me up.
He put me down.
Back to where we began.
true joy comes in pain, might i add great pain. - from one of my dearest friend.
Innocence
2:22 PM
