Friday, December 12, 2008
I am absolutely appalled by how the Americans can spend so much money on military expenditures and yet so stingy on economic aid to poorer nations. Honestly, the amount that they spend on one war alone is more than enough to finance the Africans three times round (or more than that).
Am highly highly disillusioned by human beings as well. I can't believe that there are people who can say stuff like "the price is worth it" when the price is death of thousands (more like tens of thousands) civilians and the reward is summarised in one word : Oil.
And I am starting to wonder about going into politics myself. You see, as much as idealists can try to convince me that maybe I can make a difference and what nots, the truth is, I barely can. If anyone reads enough politics or knows enough about current affairs would know that at the end of the day, it's the money that's talking. Idealism doesn't survive in politics, especially international relations. I started wondering what would happen if I myself was part of this whole whirlpool of events. Call me cowardly, but I would probably end up circuming to pressures myself and to see myself degraded to such a state one day is simply, unthinkable and scary. Would I be as heartless as those American politicans that say that deaths are worth it as long as "our interests" are secured? I don't know.
I still do like reading about politics and how it is going on in the world. Being a critic of US policy sounds a good idea as well but to be part of the system is something that I want to second think about. Do I really have to be that ruthless to climb up the ladders if I work in MFA? Or even UN? (That's provided I manage to get in as well). At this rate I am going I am probably going to become an academic all my life writing research papers.
Being too compassionate is really not such a good thing.
Innocence
2:44 AM
