Monday, March 31, 2008
March 31 Bible Reading.
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Again, the book of Deuteronomy did really speak much to me (I really prefer the New Testament) besides towards the end where it spoke of how a King should be.He should not have too many possessions or indulge in sexual desires and he should cultivate the fear of the Lord and mediate on the Word regularly.
Okay that's about it.
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The Luke passage today spoken about the feeding of the five thousand. Apparently, after consulting my precious study bible did I realize that besides Jesus's death and rescurrection, this is the only incident that is recorded in all four gospels. The gospel authors must have seen the importance of this incident. It was a demostration of faith, of Go'd miraculous power. And for today, I realized that it also reflected us as well. Well, our gifts may be little (5 loaves and two fishes) but Jesus can multiply it in a way we don't know and our small gifts can make a great impact on the society (feeding of 5000). Not only that, like what one Pastor from Trinity once said, Jesus had to break the loaves. If the loaves are representative for us, it also symbolized that in our Christian walk, we have to be broken by God before we can be used to do great things.
And yes, with God's grace, our two loaves can become something that can feed 5000 and leaving 12 basketfuls of leftover.
And then it moved on to Peter's declaration of Christ, "Who do you say I am" "The Christ of God" and then he prophesied the way He would die.
And because I know the gospels pretty well (not VERY well though, sadly) I thought this was a good reminder of my life in Jesus
"If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever would save his life would lose it, but whoever who loses his life for my sake will save it"
It was an apt reminder that, m y life belongs to God and not myself. I cannot serve myself and God at the same time. And if I choose God, I would have to deny pleasures of my heart to sin and other things that I wished I could do to serve Him. But I know my painful sacrifice would be worth it for a)He would hold me. He would come and rescue me and He would not see me in misery for long. He would come. But i must first give up. and b) I live for eternity. And eternity is glorious with God. Eternal happiness > than this life happiness.
And of coz, I never realized so many gems are within this small passage.
"For whoever is ashamed of me and of my words, of him will the son of Man be ashamed he comes in his glory of the Father and of the holy angels"
This was a verse that guided me along during my infant Christian walk. That if i can't be proud of Him, how could He be proud of me? And really to refocus myself and ask, my pride is more important or His glory is? And I realized by asking this question I am forced to do away with my very naive desires. To know what is it that I was compromising. sometimes the devil says never mind, but maybe to him it's a nevermind, but to me it may not.
Psalms has always been a reassuring book and today's psalm collection is as well.
"For he delivers the needy when he calls,
the poor and him who has no helped.
He has pity on the weak and rhew needy
and saves the lives of the needy
From oppression and violence
he redeems their life
and precious is their blood in
His sight"
What reassurance! Esp when I am currently being torn with choosing IDT and it actually happens on THURSDAY where I have tuition with this kid. I mean I just started the course. How can I keep changing. And she seems that she would be pretty unhappy if I ask for ca change. But I really wanna go for IDT> Sighs. Help God.
Teach me to put my trust in you Lord. That you will truly lead me in theway of everlasting. Help Lord.
Anyway, the proverbs verse :
"Better to be lowly and have a servant
than to play the great man and lack bread"
Reminds me of what Jesus said about the first shall be the last and the last be first. Humility is the key here i believe. Another apt reminder but for me this one seems to point more to my Christian life. That I should not hinge on the stuff I have done and know and only to be poor in God (ie not filled with Him, never do QT properly.)
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Okay. That's about all for today. Got tuition later and got to send out quite a bit of things.I feel like writing today actually, so perhaps I might be able to write something tonight. I am hoping to get these 2 days as break actually. I mean, yea, I haven't got a proper day of break since I don't know when. But we will see how God leads the way, right? =)
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God bless!
Innocence
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