Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Mission Trip 2006 Khon Kaen Thailand10 Dec - 19 Dec I will make this entry a quick one because I need my sleep.
This trip is a beautiful trip, really beautiful. The beauty of this trip is that it has taught me how to live. I remember Gareth said, Prepare to die in the trip. But God was never restricted by our imaginations, we thought we would die, but God taught us how to live. Usually mission trips, there is always a defining moment, but in this trip, EVERYTHING was defining. It was so overwhelming that even up till now God is just slowly revealing the meaning behind this trip to me. For now, I will just list down some lessons that I have learnt in general as the Lord leads and perhaps tomorrow when I am much more awake then I will type more.
I remember lesson 1 that God taught me was of patience. I remembered complaining that there wasn’t anything mighty about this trip. No super emo worship, super high prayer and God just said, “Be patient and I am in control”. Usually when God says be patient then we will have to wait like ages (in human terms) but it is just amazing how God’s be patient reaped results by the Christmas Concert which was like day 5. For one moment, I thought, God must be throwing into a sample life. You know, when we buy things there a samples and it has everything in small proportions, that was exactly how I felt.
It is also amazing how everything strings up so nicely. My complains about mundane prayers and worships and an absolute lack of interaction with the kids only turns out to make myself look so ignorant in front of God. If I had not pop down to KKCS for Christmas concert preparation, and if I wasn’t bored and had nothing much to do, I wouldn’t have met Som. Within 5 mins of speaking which each other, we prayed for each other and she even introduced me to her friends. Her fluency in English made her my translator and her craziness got me as crazy as her. If not for the relatively short prayer sessions that we have, I wouldn’t have spent time talking to my members – I would have been too tired to fellowship. If we had been so busy and tire ourselves out during the day with things, we wouldn’t have the mood to have a daily primer debrief which was indeed a blessing. It is just so refreshing every night to be able to talk to Daryl, Gareth, Fuiyi. Justin, Alf and Jun Wei when most of the day we are busy with stuff. It’s just amazing how everything strings up.
I also found out that really, God’s ways are higher than our ways. The reason why we just don’t seem to see the point of things is mainly because we have not known God’s heart well enough. Just as what I was said in the previous two paragraphs, we complain about how things don’t “seem right” but I guess our Father in heaven is smiling to himself and saying, “This is exactly how I wanted it to be” . God did not intend this trip to be one of hypes or so much of warfare, but He wanted this trip to be one of love. Loving one another, loving others. You know, the word “Mission trip” means a trip with an motive in mind and this time the motive is love and getting to know Him more deeply. And when we finally realize that that was God’s heart in this whole matter, everything falls into place. Now, nothing seems mundane and pointless. Everything had meaning suddenly.
To sum up my first part for today, I apologize that it’s a bit unorganized is that I have learnt to be patient because God had a plan for me. A good plan for me. He has everything crafted so we should stop trying to let our little selves rationalize what’s going on or what’s good or bad, but instead, know that everything will turn out perfectly in the end. He knows what He is doing, we don’t.
That’s all for now and I assure there is more. I just keep getting more and more insights, it is as though I have experienced 10 over events, leant 10 over lessons about God and myself, and I need to slowly sort them out.
Innocence
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