Monday, May 22, 2006
Emotions are sign of something that one holds tight to their hearts. Why do we feel happy over something? Because the thing matter to us greatly. And the same thing goes, why do we feel upset/uptight/grieved over something? Because we that matter was important to us. And an overdose of these emotions, which means exasperation, desperation, extreme grief etc means that there is something we have yet to give up to the Lord. Because we haven’t let go and give them up to God, it mattered to us which leads to emotions. And the most important thing is that, because it causes us so much emotions, the devil takes it and uses it against us. To me this is one of the most dangerous weapons that the devil has, because it slips in so quietly when people actually see the devil in us, it is already in one of the most “advanced stage”, the devil has already taken over most of us.
So my thoughts for now? If something particular is bugging you, give it up to God immediately. Tell God to help you to give up the control, the emotional linkage that you have with the thing. It’s going to be hard, I am still finding my way around, but I believe that God’s grace will see me through.
Today in itself, God also gave me another thought. It’s something about thinking positive. I had a hard time trying to get out of my pessimistic self and God brought me back into this little journey of how I got over it.
I started off pessimistic. What is pessimism? It’s not only thinking of the bad side of things, but rather the CHOICE of seeing the bad side. Some people might tell me : Where got people so stupid, see the bad side and make myself so unhappy? But unless you have been through this phase, you wouldn’t what it feels. For me, I chose to look on the negative side because I always thought good things will not happen to me. If I think on the good side, I end up being upset myself, because I will be badly disappointed.
And that was precisely what hindered me when I tried to “think like Jesus”. I couldn’t make myself believe that friends would spend so much effort on tjust raising me AND no have any complains. I knew things like this happened to other people, but me? I was cynical. And because I didn’t believe this fact in front of me, I put myself through unnecessary pain.
But one day, God told me, BELIEVE. And I tried, I began to start to believe that good things could happen to me. It was hard to begin with. I was upset because I had to minister to a friend and had to neglect my work I thought : I am so going to get scolded. But in the end I didn’t. God said : I sent you to do my work, I will thus not bring you to harm.
It is this confidence in the Lord that gives me hope, this optimism. Why would good things happen to me? Because God is in me. Because I believe that the heavens will have a way for me. And yes, faith is the foundation of Christianity. The presence of the Lord gives me this faith. Vague and abstract concept? Kind of. But you know what? This is the exact answer. Believe that it would happen. Why? Because our God is an almighty God and all things can be done. It’s scar. But the question is, do you dare to step into the unknown realm for our Lord?
Innocence
8:32 PM
